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1:40am: HMD/OOC
Hello everyone! My name is Lily and I play Dorcas over at numeri. If you think my portrayal is really awesome, really awful, or really average, feel free to let me know here or send me a message to this account. Anonymous commenting is on, IP logging is off.

You can also use this post if you need to let me know something and I'm being an unreachable little berk. :)

4:34pm: 014.
I seem to have acquired a cat.

I most certainly wasn't intending on buying a cat. I had a cat growing up, though, and as I was walking I happened to pass a muggle animal shelter. Quite apart from my brain, my feet went inside of their own accord, headed straight to the cat room, and instantly I fell in love with this little man.



His name is Plato, and I think he's quite possibly the most precious thing I've ever seen. He has a bell around his neck now and it breaks up the quiet of the house rather nicely. At the moment he's fond of curling up in my lap and napping, which I am fully aware will not last, so I am enjoying it while it does. He's very soft.

Private
Fighting over journals is the absolute worst. There's no solid conclusion. 'To be perfectly honest I'd rather you'd have never found out'? That hurt. But...I miss Kingsley a lot, I--. That's more important than being right, or knowing all the information or anything else. Time to be the bigger person, Dorcas. It's also time to stop talking to myself in the third person.

Added Later: Oh thank Merlin. I was so anxious, I thought maybe he--

But I was being silly. Overthinking as usual. We're okay.
/Private

Private to Kingsley
I'm sorry. I shouldn't have pried, it was none of my business, and if you wanted to keep it to yourself, it was your prerogative. Can you Do you I made a mistake, I was wrong, and I'm sorry.
/Private to Kingsley

12:14am: 013. Private to Kingsley
Kingsley, we need to talk.

4:57pm: [Owl to Marlene McKinnon]
( Owl to Marlene )

1:51am: 012.
the first two lines are written very lightly in ink, legible, but not clear
A, B, C, A, D, A, C, D, A, A
5 + 3 + 2 + 5 + 4 + 4 + 3 + 5 + 5 + 5 = 41

Goodness, I--why am I even getting Witch Weekly? It's all rubbish, but I never thought much about it...glanced at the cover maybe and left it on the table if someone was coming over, but never really read it until lately, when I've got too much time on my hands--the crosswords are surprisingly challenging, although the celebrity articles are rubbish...I've certainly never done the quizzes before.

Private
41-50 - A Match Made by Montmorency
It doesn't take our magic quiz to tell that you two are made for each other! You've been lucky enough to land one of those perfect wizards that normal witches only dream about. What are you waiting for? You've got him under your spell and if you're taking this quiz, you must love him back, so put down the magazine and go get your man!

Rubbish. These things are always rubbish. I'm sure I was just picking the ones I wanted to believe, not necessarily the truth. Right? I mean, I know he's next to perfect, but...
/Private

4:44pm: 011.
...I would like to announce publicly that I am not a Death Eater, whatever Cuffe put on that absurd list. Of course, I would say that even if I were, but I urge you to look at the facts. My mother was not only muggleborn, but a muggle rights activist who was brutally murdered for her political views. Would I join up with the people who murdered my mother? Furthermore, have I ever been known to hold blood supremacist views?

Order/Supporters
I suppose at least this load of bollocks is good because it may eliminate any extant suspicion of me as an Order member. All the people who matter know the truth, anyway.

11:49pm: 010.
Private
Oh Merlin I'm having dinner with him and his Mum what do I do

[Added 15 minutes later]

Come on, Dorcas. Calm down and stop talking to yourself in the third person, that's just tacky, a cheap literary device for self-consolation, and an ineffective one, at that. I am going to be fine. I was raised properly; I have good manners, and I obviously made a good impression on Kingsley. I have no problem socializing. I do not usually get nervous.

I'm nervous.

I'm going to think happy thoughts. I'm not going to let this drive me mad. Two days after the moon, I'll be fine, thank Merlin his birthday's not actually on the full moon.

Has he told her about...

What's he said to her about me at all? He said she wants to meet me...That's terrifying enough in and of itself.

Happy thoughts.

Oh Merlin.

[Added 15 minutes after the previous//Warded to all female Order members/supporters]

I'm not normally the sort to ask, but...do any of you have any tips for meeting your significant other's parents?

12:21am: 009. Order/Supporters
The most inconvenient symptom of lycanthropy--aside from the social stigma, of course, but that's not technically a symptom--isn't the transformation itself; it's the illness and lethargy beforehand. The moon isn't until tomorrow evening and already I feel as though I've caught the flu. This is highly inconvenient, as I said. I have things to do. In comparison, the transformation itself is not all that bad (certainly not pleasant, but in comparison); I would much prefer one night of pain and some easily healed injuries in the morning to two full days of sluggishness and a general feeling of malaise. It's not as if I get to choose just one, though, so the point is moot.

On the positive side, I'm making progress with a charm I'm working on. I have narrowed the invisibility charm in such a way that it's easy and practical to cast on just one article of clothing, rendering it temporarily invisible (a few seconds is all that is necessary). Now is the tricky part, wherein I figure out a way to keep the owner of said item from noticing it has been made invisible.

Private

                                      to do

D.S.

Figure out what I'm getting Kingsley for his birthday Seriously stop doodling this time More research on mask materials is necessary Shopping is also necessary Make shopping list ...include a new quill, this one is clearly possessed

Dorcas + Kingsley

/Private

8:05pm: 008. Order/Supporters
Now that there's been a proper mourning period for Diggle, I must ask--does anyone have an associate with an affinity for fire and beliefs similar to those of Voldemort and his supporters? It would be very useful to begin building a list of suspected Death Eaters so we may tailor our patrols to monitor their activities and try to keep them from doing further harm.

[Heavily Warded Private]
Last night I didn't have a nightmare in fact I had an excellent dream about... I also didn't drink firewhiskey. This is promising. I should repeat the experiment tonight, but it's difficult. I keep heading towards the cabinet out of habit.

I do hope I haven't acquired an addiction. That would be most inconvenient & embarrassing.

suspected death eaters + reasons

• Mr & Mrs Lestrange - Much as I hate to prejudge based on blood, their behaviours and attitudes, so far as I've observed, are consistent with Voldemort's ideals. If not actual participants, surely at least supporters.
  
• Regulus Black - On information from Sirius, though it does seem highly unlikely given his personality. Perhaps under the Imperius curse?
  
• Matthew Selwyn - Given Lestrange's suspicious actions with the Selwyn file, it appears likely that either he or another suspect in the file is a Death Eater. He's the only one I know, however. Must ask Benjy for more details on contents of file. After discussions with Benjy, Matthew seems increasingly likely to have asked Lestrange about the contents of said file, given the evidence. Of course, this is nowhere near proof, but I will keep his name in mind.
  
• Fenrir Greyback - Probably not an official Death Eater but I believe he is at least working with Voldemort.
  

Must find more suspects. This is nowhere near adequate.
[/Private]

5:02pm: {recipients will be added as they request cookies on Dorcas' journal entry}

( Owl + Package to Regulus Black, Marlene McKinnon, Lorcan Yaxley, Felix Mulciber, Kingsley Shacklebolt )

3:11pm: 007.
I'd forgotten how enjoyable baking something simple can be. I made shortbread biscuits this morning and...well, got distracted and started baking without thinking. Though they all turned out excellently (forgive me a bit of arrogance, please), I made far too many, more than I could ever eat, which should be taken as an indication of how many I made, as they're my favourites. Anyway, as I said, there are far too many cookies in my kitchen at present, so if you would like some, let me know and I'll owl you a dozen or so.

Private
Really, this is getting pathetic. If I'm daydreaming so much that I made this many... I can focus, such as when I'm trying to untangle this charm, but when I permit my mind to wander, my thoughts keep going to...
/Private

9:24pm: 006. Locked to Order/Supporters
That was...not as bad as I'd feared.

The transformation itself was, of course, quite painful. The memory gap is somewhat unsettling, but I can look at the walls of my basement and piece together what went on; the door was obviously not opened, so I know I did no harm to anyone. And I did sleep in this morning, which is quite out of character for me. I'm tired, and I now have a few interesting scars, but am otherwise...all right. I thought perhaps some of you would like to be reassured of my health status, so please don't worry, if I may be presumptuous in assuming that you were.

Locked to Kingsley
Thank you for the date taking me out the other evening. I hope we Would you like to I had a lovely time.
/Lock

Private

to do

• Stock up on bandages for next full moon
• Don't buy any more firewhiskey
• Stop doodling, that could be embarrassing later
• Make sure Marlene and Benjy get together
• Figure out what DE masks are made of
• Pick out what I'm wearing on Friday
• Stop being pathetic

/Private

8:49pm: ( Owl to Benjy Fenwick )

1:13am: 005. Locked to Marlene
( Private to Marlene )

1:37am: 004.
I personally believe St. Valentine's Day is one of the most pointless public holidays. I suppose it might change my opinion if I were with someone, but frankly, why wait for one night a year to treat them like they're special? If you really love someone, you ought to celebrate your relationship all of the time, not 4/1461sts of the time.

On the other hand, those of us who aren't fortunate enough to be in love somehow manage to function normally for most of the year, but on this day we feel collectively compelled to sit around and drink and feel sorry for ourselves. This is rubbish. Valentine's Day is no different from any other day if you aren't in a relationship. Ignore the stupid couples around you, turn off the Muggle television if you're inclined to watch it, and do what you'd normally do.

[PRIVATE]
The corner store was out of alcohol. Bloody Valentine's day.

And just the time when I really need it, too. The full moon is Monday. I've taken the necessary steps, I now have a basement that's quite against local regulations, and I know it's properly secured, I'm just...

I wonder what it's going to be like?
[/PRIVATE]

1:55pm: 003.
Does anyone have any recommendations for reading material? I've reread everything in my personal library twice in the last few weeks.

12:17am: 002.
....For those of you who know Sirius Black, you may be interested in heading over to St. Mungo's in the near future. At approximately three in the morning, an hour or so ago, he flew through my front window. Apparently that motorbike of which he is so fond saw fit to throw him off midair. He's not dead, but he did break several bones and is in considerable pain; just fit for an "I told you so" from any and all of his friends, when he wakes up.

It's times like these that I am thoroughly glad to be a Ravenclaw.

7:37pm: 001. Locked to Order members/supporters
I'm still in Mungo's, but I asked to have my journal brought to give me something to do. Did anyone figure out any of the reasoning behind the attack on Winchelsea? It was a diversion for the Ministry attack, but why there? I understand I was out for a day and a half at least, and might be behind on such things.

Also, if anyone has anything I can work on, please let me know. Sitting in hospital is dreadfully boring, and I should much rather be productive than waste this time.

1:27am: Patronus [sphinx] to Lily Potter
( Sent around lunch time Monday )

8:07pm: CR Table
( You make me smile, please stay for a while now )

1:38am: Character Sheet/Etc
( Wit beyond measure is man's greatest treasure. )

1:37am: Quick Facts - IC
( Sense will always have attractions for me. )